I made a choice earlier this week, to try and “participate in life and make my choices more meaningful”.
As part of this, I wanted to make Friday a little bit different since we have more time up our sleeves (no homework, easy meal for dinner – During the week I make bigger meals that are re-heatable so hubby can take it to work the next day)
Come Friday, I was tired, and I could feel the motivation had drained out of me! We walked home from school in the heat, my wee man often stopped and just sat on the footpath. My two girls had gone ahead and was sitting under the shade ready for me to help them cross the “busy” T section (it’s not that busy, but feels busy when I think about my girl’s crossing a T section that has some blind corners!) I was pushing my youngest in the pram, who was about ready to fall asleep because of the heat and the busy session at Playcentre earlier that morning. Yet, we all pressed on, and we made it home….except my motivation had not made it!
Part of me wanted to forget about my little plan, part of me wanted to go through with it, because I liked the idea of trying to do something a little special on a Friday.
Who won?
It took a little while, but I finally got myself moving. I decided that we were going to have a picnic at the playground for dinner.
In my head I knew it was a good idea to do this, and that thought helped me go through with it…and then it happened…my heart melted.
I could see my two youngest children on the springy bike, giggling to each other. My youngest was sitting at the back of my 5 year old son with her hands wrapped around him, gleeing with delight. (the shot above is of my two youngest on another occasion on the springy bike…but captures what I saw yesterday.)
Aaaaahh…this was the reward, this is what made the effort all worth it.
My mind was in it, but now my heart was in also.
My 9 year old daughter and I spent some time hanging out on a climbing frame that had a hammock type set up at the top. We just talked. Bliss…
Today I had many moments where I noticed my heart melt….
…….working as a team to tidy our house and Playcentre this morning. We worked hard, but for a good cause.
……..watching my kids having fun with their friends at our Ward Picnic at Eastbourne Beach. You can’t beat the huge smile on their faces!
…….watching my kids play together building sand castles.
…….watching a mum and a dad taking baby steps with their children to help them jump off the warf for the first time. (I wasn’t quite ready for it, I think my kids would have seen the fear in my eyes!)
…….the many hugs and kisses I got tonight from my kids…heavenly!
…….feeling that today was a good day, with wonderful memories.
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